till i get over you........

I don't know whose side I'm takin'
But I'm not takin' things too well
I can see inside you're achin'
But is it still too early for me to tell?

(chorus)
I try to help you out through the hardest of times
Your heart is in your throat and I'm speaking my mind
Though it looks as if it's over
I'm still not over you'

Cause I still love you like I did before
I know for sure that you still feel the same way I do
if only she knew
Whoa, if only she knew

(Michelle Branch's - If Only She Knew)

I actually don't know if you feel the same way as I do.
All I know is that I'm still trying to get over you...
It sure is fucking hard.

So I'm countin' my tears
Till I get over you

Chaque fois que tu t'en vas
je pretends que tout va bien

We both know that I'm not over you

I'm not over you

(Michelle Branch - Till I Get Over You)

Here to stay?

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR, BITCHES!
Hope you'll get lots of red packets and then share it with me. Hahahaha.

Sorry I haven't been updating much... Well, I can make that my "new year's resolution" for CNY. If there's ever such a thing... Hahaha.

I'm still really tired from last night actually, I got really drunk!
Stupid Long Island Tea, Blue Spin and weird Vodka drink!
Hahaha.

Thanks alot to Shanna, cause I ended up sleeping on the couch in the club, so she had to look after me, and apparently they tried really hard to wake me up, but I just didn't. Haha. HEY! I'm sure they had their fun disturbing me while i'm sleeping! Hahahah.

Anywayyyyy, I know my previous post was like really emo. Haa. Yeah well... I get emo sometimes too okay!? But thanks alot to all of you guys who were really sweet to me.
Appreciate it. :)

And well... The situation now seems really complicated. I don't know what do you want from me. But I've been keeping it really cool. I don't know man... See you at my place this monday.

Anyway, I gotta run.
I know I haven't been posting much pictures. I'm sooooooo sorry... I'll do it soon. I'll try my best to do it tonight if I'm not gonna be sleeping, but I doubt it cause I'm already tired! Oh well, we'll see.

Have a good one shitheads.
x

It Ends Tonight.

I can still recall the first time we met.
It was a last minute dinner meeting with Thomas, the day before we left for Bangkok.
I was pretty reluctant to go after work actually, but I am glad I did.
Surprised to see you and Kian... So, dinner then Thomas left and we went to the Bar at Raffles Hotel and then to Balaclava at Suntec.
If I'm not wrong, it was your first few nights out in Singapore... That's why the Singapore Sling!

The next I can remember that we've met is at Merrakesh, again after work and I was reluctant to go. And yet again, I was glad I went. Because that was when it started...

I've noticed you looking from over the table quite a few times...
And I did the same as well.
You then gave your business card to me for our next date to Home Club. Never happened though. But it's okay... Cause we've had others.

I missed one of our dates and had you waiting aimlessly because of something stupid I did, but you were really nice to me that night still.
Your simple, "you ok?"
Made it all okay.

Date over beers? Sure, anytime with you!
Seated for about 3 hours at this bar right outside MoS, endless chatterings, and a slow walk to your then apartment.
Great taste in music! You still owe me my mixtape though...
I hope you will still make one for me, I know you were planning already.

Followed by dinner dates.
Was it 3 times at that Thai-Malay place at City Hall?
I know you really enjoy the stuffed chickens!

You've went overseas many times, but that didn't stop us from contacting each other.
Shanghai, Jakarta, Tokyo, Scotland...
Emails, text messages, phone calls and MMS-es.
I still have some of them.

That night. I can remember vividly.
Ajisen at Bugis and followed by another walk to Lavender. I'm glad you invited me in.
And I'm pretty sure you are too.
I enjoy these walks with you. I love walking... Especially when you're walking with someone you enjoy being with.

Love your new apartment! Arty, well-decorated, cosy.
Love your idiocyncrasies! Weird sleeping habits- no noisy aircons, clumsiness, eating venues.
Love your taste in clothes, music, and stuff! Dior, Penguin, Indie, funky clocks.
Love you in your glasses!

Love for you to be around be it's a shame it couldn't work out.
Like I said, I know it's gonna be hard... But I really hope we can still be friends.

I don't know if you know this, or even reading this in the first place!
But you're the first person I liked so much, and all I wanted is for you to be well and happy.
Your cough now is really hindering your sleep.
Get well soon!

Thank you for everything that we've shared and had.
I really hope you like the shark and keep it or even bring it to Scotland in future!

It sure is sad it had to end.

xxx

Shouldn't I be dead by now?

Oh, goodness gracious. I haven't blogged in like 2 weeks I guess?
That's a really long time....

I couldn't find the time to sit down (feeling like blogging) and do so!
School's been really busy lately. With a couple of submissions and tons of sewing work!
Finally done with my 'twah' (mock up or sample) today!
Of course, I have been partying alot as well, I'm sure you would have guessed that.
Ministry of Sound, Attica, Zouk, FashionBar, St. James Powerhouse, PLAY, and soooo onn.....

And aside from school and partying, of course I was busy with something else.
That did cause me to get hurt. But we're really cool... And we're in a really complicated situation!
OMGGGGGGGGG. I don't know how am I gonna deal with this!
Only time will tell? I hate waiting. I'm a pretty impatient person!
UGHH. Mixed signals.

Anywayyyyy, there are, as usual, tonnnnnnnns of pictures! Especially since I haven't blogged in 2 fucking weeks.


This night when we went to Zouk, I was actually like REALYYYYYYYY sick. Gosh. I was sick all the way from the afternoon. It's fucking retarded. But I still went to Zouk that night though after having my panadols. BUT I was also drinking there, so I guess that's why I got sooo red. omg. HAha. Lyn said I was so red, it matched the tee I was wearing! HAHAHAA. Right?!!

OMGGGGGGGGGG

I CANNOT FUCKING BELIEVE THIS.
I HAVE SPENT THE PAST 2 HOURS OF MY LIFE SITTING HERE BLOGGING WITH ALL MY FUCKING PICTURES ALL THESE WEEKS, AND GUESS WHAT?

JUST ONE FUCKING ERROR AND I CANNOT FUCKING RECOVER IT BACK!

FUCK! EVEN THE BLOODY 'RECOVER POST' CAN'T DO SHIT.
OMGGGGGGGGGGGG.

AND TO THINK THAT I NEED ALL THE REST THAT I CAN GET TO RECOVER FROM THE FUCKING WEEKEND. FUCKING ADD ON TO MY MISERY.

I'VE FINALLLYYYYY GOT BACK TO BLOGGING HERE AND THIS IS WHAT FUCKING HAPPENS.

I AM SO PISSED OFF, YOU HAVE NO FUCKING IDEA.

THEY SAY, "MISERY, LOVES COMPANY."

I SAY, FUCK YOU.
ARGH!